See more from our interview with Girardi on Tuesday's ET. "It's just being OK and knowing that I'll get to see them one day in heaven." "l'll never be able to let go or forget," says Girardi. After being "consumed" by her miscarriage, she's tried to just "be happy and enjoy my life for a while," but is now considering trying to get pregnant again, or become a mom through adoption. She's been inspired by those women who have gone on to have rainbow babies, a term coined for healthy babies born after a parent loses a child to miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss. Since opening up about her story, however, Girardi has become a source of support to other women, who have also helped her in return. "She was my rock."Īs the 33-year-old notes, "we don't talk about miscarriages in society." "You don't talk about it. "She knew what I was going through," Girardi says, crying. That experience allowed her to help her daughter through the loss. Girardi's emotional healing was supported by her mom, who had multiple miscarriages herself. "I'm going to get a little teary-eyed, because the last couple weeks, seeing myself, I finally feel comfortable putting a bathing suit on and finally feel comfortable looking at myself in the mirror and not feeling sad," she says. "I had a mini mommy makeover," Girardi explains. The Florida native spoke with fellow Bachelor alum Erica Rose, who recently underwent a "mommy makeover" Girardi remembers wanting to "look at myself and feel beautiful again." "I feel like now is a wakeup call and it's get up move go be happy, go live your life." I didn't work out like I used to - I just kind of gave up," she shares. But earlier this year, more than three years after she experienced pregnancy loss, Vienna announced that she was expecting again. "I still find myself not wanting to go out, going to do much. In August 2017, Vienna posted on social media that she almost died after emergency surgery when losing her twins and had to spend four days in the ICU. Everytime I looked at myself, I hurt and then I got angry," Girardi recalls, with tears in her eyes. It was really hard for me and I felt like it was a wound on top of a wound. "I gained 25 pounds over that year from being depressed. While Girardi's daughters were no longer with her, her body still displayed signs of a pregnancy, with her "mommy pouch" a constant reminder of the loss she suffered. "It took me a year, physically and emotionally, to recover and it was really difficult because I would look at myself in the mirror and I wouldn't feel like myself," she confesses.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |